I woke up again in the early morning hours to see the full moon shinning through a thin veil of clouds out the bedroom window. I begin to pray and I come to the first Glorious Mystery remembering what has been broken and still needs to be raised up by invoking the power of the resurrection. It not up to me how this may happen or what this should look like. All that is needed is my attention and my offering and the rest is left up to the Higher Power.
I reflect on Christ returning to the apostles and how each person experienced his returned differently. Magdalene was given the grace to receive him first at the cave. But I asked where is she? In the second mystery? When the Tongues of Fire of the Holy Spirit descended on the apostles and the Virgin Mary? This happens often to those who pave the way, before others have the eyes to see. This is the mystery within the mystery. The deeper one goes into their practice one begins to see the subtle changes in the lives of people you hold in your prayers. This must be what Christ was speaking about;
“ But when you pray, go into your inner room, shut your door, and pray to your Father, who is unseen. And your Father, who sees what is done in secret will be reward you.” Mathew
I only just imagine what it must have felt like for Magdalene to be denied just as the fear of Peter denied Christ three times. It is fear that makes us afraid to look into the mirror of ourselves. It is our wounds that are not healed completely that make us not have the vision to see our mirror reflection in our family members, our loved ones and most of all our enemies.
As we go deeper into our practice, deeper into the mysteries let us also have the courage to dissolve our egos and our judgments of having to be recognized for the inner work that is Accomplished Through Us.
“Truly, I tell all of you emphatically, the one who believes in me will also do what I’m doing. He will do even greater things than these” from the International Bible unquote
This is one of the Last Temptations….What the small print does not say: “Don’t take credit for those miracles that happen through you.”
I would like to say, these things I write I am learning along the way but have not completely mastered, thus I write.
The images are both from Southern France. The first layer is a Medieval monastery that still stands and the image of Christ was from one from the small village’s chapels.